I have not written anything on this blog since I was retrenched by a company I have been with for 11 long years. I guess my desire to blog diminished since I fell into depression and I was also quite dissatisfied with the companies I joined after leaving Monster. I still love Monster and would rejoin in a heartbeat given the chance.
I am writing to talk about the fracture on my upper left arm.
It happened on 12 / 12 / 2020. I worked long hours and late for my current company on Friday, almost 14 hours non stop. But still managed to catch an episode of Mandalorian Season 2, the episode with Bill Bur in it.
It was right past midnight, I wanted to go to sleep and planned to wake up 7am to hit the gym early in the morning. I went into my bathroom while still listening to a podcast on YouTube using my laptop's loud speaker. This ofcourse wasn't the first time I fell in the bathroom but I usually ended up ok.....However this time i really slipped badly....the floor was wet since I had a late shower after I finished work. This time I could not control my fall well and I tried to balance my fall and tilted more to my left on instinct as i didn't want to knock my head. I fell very very hard on the edge and tip of the bathroom... my upper left side of the arm hit it hard.
I felt immense pain, sat on the floor and thought I will be ok...just a fall...I will be fine. I was in a daze, my ears ringing and eyesight turned white, I nearly fainted. I felt pain and looked to my left arm. I still remember that sight....I could not believe it... the middle of my upper left arm...it broke and shaped like an L going sideways. I was horrified with what I saw. I couldn't get up as every time I tried to move I cried and shouted in agony. My left arm felt numb - I was frightened of my terrible condition beyond belief. I banged my brother's door which was also adjacent and linked to the same bathroom, I called for his help. My brother and my dad came. They tried to get me up to stand, I felt excruciating pain and nearly fainted from it. I managed to get back up on 2 feet with their help but it was not easy...i was in SHOCK and wanted to go back to my bed to sleep...let it recover by itself Maybe ...just maybe I was hallucinating that my upper arm broke?? It looked like something from the movie THE FLY when that hand was broken during the arm wrestling scene -- but for my case it was on my upper LEFT ARM. The horror....
My brother insisted I go to the hospital and almost called for an ambulance, I said no need to call for ambulance and got up, got into his car...but that journey from my bed to his car.... and then towards the hospital.....the pain I shall not easily forget for the rest of my life. Got into his car, every turn at the cornering he made it felt like arm was about to fall off -- the PAIN. I asked to go to the clinic, we searched for 24 hours clinic.. Mediviron...alam medic...all cinics were closed...due to curfew from covid situation in Malaysia. We decided to head straight to the hospital..I let my brother who was the driver choose. He picked SJMC and we headed there. We reached the hospital and even getting out the car was difficult, I even shouted like a crazy mad man...every time i had to stand up , sit down. The doctor gave a me Covid 19 test...checked my tongue...then stuff something into my nose-- it wasn't a pleasant experience. Doc asked me to move my fingers and left wrist, I was able to move them so my nerve was fine - thank god....
They asked me to do an Xray...it took 10 minutes since it was hard to take the right position of the xray shots ..every movement on my upper arm felt like I was going to die. After one hour the result came. A very bad fracture on my upper arm -- which i discovered days later that part was called Humerus (sounds humorous but it was no joke) . Here is the actual X-ray of my left arm on that day:
Emergency doctor told me I had to go for an operation else I will never be able to move my left arm again - EVER..... He asked if I had any orthopedic doctor I preferred, i said no he suggested Dr Roshan and I said ok. I gave my personal medical card to my brother and he helped me with the registration.
I finally got into the hospital bed after 4am. Tired, I cried on my bed ...asking myself...why did it happen to me. I wished for it to be a dream. And I wake up everything will be fine,..not a broken man as I was. I slept after 5am.
I had the operation on Sunday around 2pm. They gassed and knocked me out during the surgery. I woke up 4pm and surgery was done. They cut me open and planted a metal plate with screws to join back my bones. Now my girlfriend calls me Iron Man.
I am still recuperating at home...No longer feeling the immense pain but still unable to move my left arm much...still feeling some pain from the cut...i have a 8cm scar now. I do everything now with my right hand only as my left arm I cant move it much, I wrote this article, using only my left hand to type. The year 2020 has not been good to me. I hope I will fare much better in 2021....
I still feel traumatized by what happened to me on that fateful day...and every time I stepped back into the bathroom...it reminds me of that night...how much I suffered....it will not be easy to forget this..................always an unforgettable moment in my life.....12.12.2020....................
